My Poetry
Turn BackNeeding to run but afraid to move,
How do I keep my feetin pace With a speedy heartbeat Trapped by its dead pulse. I'm watching, Father Time swing the pendulum Forward and forward - and you push back and back Leaving us in a suffocating abeyance Cloaked by fear and affection. Though our love is vital itssomber death A lingering taste can only leave us famined, Ignorant of the appetitite in which we cannot find satisfaction. So, my Past, hold me close but keep me far. And in this resolution may our hearts, again, Find comfort in the steady, rising And setting of the golden sun. To Jenna, Miss You
We've been running all this time
Chasing a wind that keeps on moving Through the fields and across the sky We are spinning around the globe With our hearts side by side. You've got my soul in your heart I've got your love in my mind And we'll keep journeying this life Traveling together through time. I can't wait to see the world Through the sparkle of your eyes, Watch you reach for all those dreams As you finally see all that you are. My faith is in our futures And no matter where these paths may lead The fates have weaved our lives together So best friends heart-in-heart I know we'll always be. Silent EverythingsThere is something in our silence
That catches my ear Makes my heart begin to tremble And all my anger disappear The rocking comfort of your breath As you rest your forehead against my own Covers all angst in a cloak of want A comforter of seclusion An escape from the next tick of the clock. Your trembling breathe against my cheek As you rest your forehead against mine Pulls me into your desire As we forget the pressing time. What you’d say would be right, you know I know I could say it too Together, we are right, and I (if I?) Can let myself escape in you. I’m naked in your ignited gaze But I’ve never felt so sure As you cloak me your desire And tender the passion We’ve both been longing for. My screams have become a whisper
falling on deaf ears. That hands that used to hold me close have long since disappeared. I know you're gone and you've moved on, but I'm begging for you to be, Just for this moment, someone who can remind me I need to be, More than a memory. These eyes have cried for far too long, and have nothing left to give. My heart feels deserted, my touch feels cold, and there's no one around to see. Pain can make the best of us feel numb under the strongest blow. I can't bear to think of hurting you, but I'm afraid of being let go. |
UntitledWhen I fell into your world all the colors came alive
Uncertainty was my greatest fear, but you promised to be My guide, you took my heart and haven’t let go, Walking ahead of me, embracing me along our destiny. When I was afraid, you are pushed me forward When I was holding back, you were steady, When I look up, you are looking back smiling, Waiting patiently, and I am ready. The more you love me and pave the way, The more my strengthening heart beats down The walls of trepidation that kept me grounded. With your touch I am freed from all my worries, Intoxicated by the infinite possibilities With you, and only you, by my side. Your hand in mine, I will love you With all my heart, and more of it. Tipping PointBefore you run Cinderella
You see we have our last dance I’m sorry it took me all night But say you’ll give me the chance We’ve been playing, chasing these years Thinking time would wait for us And I left you waiting for me Hoping you’d never give up You were the happy ending I wanted But wasn’t ready to have I let you down pretending I didn’t notice That you are still what I’ve been dreaming of Now you’re letting me hold you And glowing with that laugh I know I’m watching you slip through my fingers Not ready to let you go My darling don’t make this night end We can stay here hand in hand I’m ready to hold you tightly And we’ll race against the wind. Baby locked me with her blue eyes Sweet tears rolling down her face “You know that I’ve always loved you, But you can’t keep me in place. I’ve been dancing on my own now Just waiting for you to see You were always supposed to lead And enjoy this dance with me.” Cinderella running out now Not looking back anymore I know I could run after her Is it what we're asking for? Every night has to wind down At least I had my last dance --No I’m not gonna sit this one out I’m not gonna miss my chance Too long I danced without the one Playing games with my dear friend Maybe it’s true every beginning Doesn’t mean another’s end. Single ChoiceWhen that rainbow breaks free Between the clouds as they park Do we question the sun About leaving us in the dark? If we choose to forgive To embrace the calm That we have all been searching For all along. Then we choose look past What left us cold before Made us question ourselves And leave us waiting for more. You were and are a piece of me The eyes that see through me The mind that understands What you, me, we can, will be. I can't deny the man you are Looking right through the walls Behind which my love was hidden Until again you make me fall. From the one you used to be to me Playing tricks with this fragile heart To the other half of what is me Crossing bridges a fresh start Darling don't worry about what's gone And what shouldn't come between But know someone goes to sleep each night Hoping to meet you in their dreams. Don’t you see I’m not the better I’ve never had a chance but to Realize in the end all I want is to Share what I can with you. Because the second you stole my heart I never had a choice, but to choose, my love, for you. |
Do You See?Darling, you are
Beautiful. How many people Can light up a room Just by saying hello? And the way you say hello, The look your eyes give, The dimples in your smile When you’re in love With what you’re seeing, Or hearing, or saying. You have an affair With the world. And the world Is the lucky one. Darling, you are Beautiful. You’re beautiful. Some people have a fire, But you have more. You are the spark that lights A fire in the hearts Of those you touch. You place us on a pedastal And raise us up above the sky But you deserve to be flying Beyond the hole you've dug And the cave in which you hide. Darling, you are meant To shine in the light. My love, you are Beautiful, Incredible. Don't you see? You wrap yourself in chains And see yourself down below But don’t you see the wings That can take you anywhere In this world, so come -- with me. And we’ll be Eachothers’ light. Can't you see? I won’t let you fall, And I won’t lose sight Of all that you are, which is Beautiful, darling, you are Beautiful. Emptiness is like a drug, But I can keep you safe From the raging storm You seek when the sun Is just beyond your horizon. Give me that look that melts The core of my soul, And I’ll take your hand Forever, and we’ll touch The limits of the sky. You can so don't you want to In a sunset that never ends. You deserve to soar In a beauty that reminds You, darling, you are Beautiful. Close your eyes And hear my voice I’m begging for you to see You mesmerize me. You’re beautiful, Darling, The most beauty I’ll ever hope to see. SoularRise early before the alarm clock rings
Reminding me of what the day will bring I rush to prepare myself for the day. Deep breathe in the mirror, And a flash of a smile to send myself off, I head out to take on the clouds. Do you ever think about the sun, And the work it takes to keep The world moving in the light. With so many clouds ready To push it out of sight, It’s hard sometimes to keep The happy alive. Do you ever think about the sun, And how the light sometimes has to work Harder to stay afloat. Do you ever think about the load Of keeping the dark Around the clock Behind your sights, So that you can wake up each day Before the alarm clocks rings Ready to take on the world. Let the shadows dissolve Under the warm breathe, That wraps itself around The contagious darkness Looming between the minutes Time moves in circles, Never leaving us alone To fend for ourselves. Tomorrow I’ll wake to the sun And flash a smile to the window That looks out onto the day. It’s too easy for the clouds To loom above my day But the sun will always be Will stay close behind Never leaving but keeping The life in us alive. Fresh Start
I scoop my hands into the toasted earth, |
Open-EndedIt’s so easy to fall into your eyes
But I know better than to trust my heart anymore. From the start you’ve had me suspended Itching to let my toes touch the ground — anchored in an impossible love affair That will never find an answer. As you cradle me in your arms You rock my little world upside down Once, twice, forever again. We share a secret with and from ourselves But every time our lips pretend to whisper The escaped kisses hush the waiting lullaby. As you clasp me oh so tightly in your arms I've never felt so secure, and yet You sway the ground I stand on But I always come back again. We’ll keep swimming against the current, Because we’re too weak not to weather the storm. Why do you reach your hand to mine If you’re never ready to hold me whole? Once, twice, forever again It’s too easy to fall into your eyes But my heart’s been there before. Always, time and time again. Beaten JourneyTrudging through dirty footprints
And wondering why I choose to follow A path I know will spit me out And send me back to the beginning. I’ve seen the struggles that lay before And I’ve got the scars from the briars that rip Into my heart, and ideals, and intentions Of making more of what will never be. It’s a game of did and didn’t and does again, And I’ve already seen the back of the card. There is no clearing beyond the brush Just a sandman telling me not to bother Leaving my dreams because reality Is never more than what I find it to be. Yet I keep going through the motions Expecting a white rabbit to cross my path And bring me to another dimension Where this play will turn out right. Because my eyes follow the tracks set before, Just waiting to see a shift in direction A crossing of the brutal winds To pick me up and carry my wavering spirit Above the landscape in which I’m bound. And then maybe, I’ll find a way through If only to start again. BurningI drop the half-eaten apple, UsGive me back long mornings in bed that lasted all afternoon Closing Down
Wiping down the glossy wooden boards of the oak bar, Tic-Toc-TomorrowRemember the days when our feet used to tap
To the clock as it ticked, and ticked, and ticked. The hands couldn’t move any slower While we looked for the next second, The next minute, the next adventure. We couldn’t wait for this and that, To get out of here and go on to there. Tomorrow, next year, next time, soon. The future was at the end of a timer That would never turn full circle. And now it’s as if the digits are racing by As we pound beatedly To stop the watch. As it ticks. Ticks. Ticks. There went yesterday, there goes today, And we are squinting our eyes Holding our breath and feeling our hearts Beat desperately with each abrasive tick Before the last fleeting dive into The ringing of the future’s bell. |
Hate
In memory of a young man killed for being "different" and not being afraid to be himself.
I was brave enough to be myself,
To allow myself to want out loud
A fairytale that 'isn't right.'
"We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves
in order to be like other people."
I had to fight to fit.
I had to reach harder for the stars.
And then --
You pushed me into an early grave.
Words of ignorance boiling out of your throat,
Utterances that come from damned public
Who stands to tolerate the immoral us.
Tolerance, an ugly word, compared to empathy.
Intolerance, the weapon,
Not the angry fist, that broke the years
That should have been ahead of me,
All because of an accidental brush
Of my 'infectious' hand across your cheek.
Those same streets you cruised
Drunkenly before fixating
On me, your arbitrary target.
You, free, now wander,
While my mother cries,
A prisoner to her tears,
A frequenter of my grave,
A victim of hate.
Only a year later, tears of my family,
Flames floating above the candles
At the vigil held in my honor,
Wash and burn away the curses of hatred.
A stabbing retort that captured my life,
Now becomes a text stamped in black and white,
A clipping from the local Sunday paper,
A photograph that speaks a thousand words:
A message about the shades of gray
In which love, all love, is found.
Broken
You cupped her in your hands,
And nestled her into the earth.
A place you had dug for her,
By the foot of the old oak.
You thought she could grow strong there,
Under your loving care,
And flaunt vibrant shades,
Your little rosebud,
She believed you could protect her.
While the wooden tower up above
Tried to block her from the world,
Its branches hugged too tightly, and then
It left her alone,
Under its cloak,
A mere shadow of herself.
Trampled upon by muddy shoes,
Suffocating in a web of weeds,
A lost voice tucked away,
And you from afar
Watching helplessly,
As each delicate petal
Floats
Lifelessly.
The Wishing Well
(Accidentally erased this one. I'll be back soon.